Somewhere Out There

I went on a date last Saturday (yeah, don't hold your breath!) and as I was on a double date (THANKFULLY!) my friend brought up that I was adopting from China. The guy asked Don't you want to have your own children? I was infuriated by this comment previously by someone who had some right to know the answer, but who(m?) I thought was much better with "presenting" questions like this. My mom had suggested that most people (hopefully!) just hadn't thought about the semantic implications of this type of question. So after a moment I gulped down my fury and all the thoughts that were bombarding me (whaddaya mean my OWN? what if I couldn't physically have a child? check please,I am soooo outta here...) and tried to answer. I tend to get overwhelmed emotionally and my language skills become totally non-existent. I think all that came out was something kind of non-sensical like, "Because she's already out there."
Anyway, I think I'm over dating for good. And when I saw this video "All I really Want" by Stephen Curtis Chapman over at the Gallants site today, I found myself bawling. This is not really my music "genre" but it's been that kind of week! I guess whether Ellie is still "fairy dust" or already waiting for me at a SWI she is "out there" and we both really want and need each other.

Oh, and that comment isn't the overall reason I'm not seeing this man again. You know, no "sparks" and the fact he wore the same Navy issue glasses my dad wears! =0

ALL I REALLY WANT (by Steven Curtis Chapman) Music Video Code provided by Video Code Zone